Have you ever led a Bible study that... well... sucked? I had my regular Tuesday night Bible study at my house... about 25 women... we talked and then broke up into our small groups for the study- and I feel like my group went so bad!
I could hear the other groups in other parts of the house laughing and talking and mine was so quiet and non-participatory. It was frustrating. I think part of the problem was my writing this time... I didn't ask many open-ended questions, in retrospect, and I also came at it without thinking about the new Christians that would be there. The one good discussion my group got into was a tangent about the Catholic church- and of course, one of the ladies grew up in the Catholic church and I was afraid that her feelings got hurt...
I think it ended ok, but I feel so insecure. The same lady asked me a question that I knew the answer to, but I was a little shaken up... and I wasn't really sure exactly what she was asking... it took forever to get to the point of what she wanted to know. I think in the end, we covered it- I just have a bad taste in my mouth, you know?
I guess I feel like they may be thinking, "She's the pastor's wife! Shouldn't she know more than that? This really sucked tonight!" I'm sure that no one is, indeed, thinking that and I'm being ridiculously hard on myself. I know, it's my fishbowl complex. I'm over-analyzing.
Sooo, Deep Cleansing Breath (back from my Lamaze days) and try harder for next week. Thanks, Lord for this relatively painless learning opportunity.
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Oh yeah - I have had those classes and small groups. I ask a question (quite good, in my mind) and all I hear is ... crickets chirping. "Hello? Hello?"
Every one has their 'off days' but it was probably one of those times when others would say everything went well! But even if they agree that it was a 'Dyson moment' :-) you are making yourself available to you congregation and, most importantly, to God.
Keep in the race!
Jill
who could say it better than Jill just did?
Ive definitely had that kind of moment. Takes me back to Ferris Bueller's classroom...anyone? anyone? Bueller? Bueller?
Im learning God doesn't ask me to be fabulous, just faithful. I personally would like to at least be both! ;) Love ya.
thanks girls... you're awesome!
We've all had a Bible study gone bad. Don't let it discourage you. Keep up the hard work and I'm sure the Lord will use the study in the women's lives. He works inspite of our shortcomings.
-FringeGirl
Sigh! I know so well what you mean. Been there done that. Just had Bible Study this morning and there were only 5 of us and we couldn't stay on track for a pair of minutes...too much participation...if you know what I mean.
KUTGW,
Lori
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