After a great weekend full of celebrations and sign-raisings, I find myself struggling again on Monday morning.
I couldn't really put my finger on what it was- except for the fact that my head feels like it's going to explode from sheer centrifugual force, if that makes any sense. It makes sense to me... I feel like my brain is going round and round so quickly... so full of other people and their problems exploding in on me... problems between people in the church body... problems in my own little family... stress from relationships that I know aren't ok... did what I said offend this person... why haven't they been here for the past couple of weeks... are these jeans too tight to wear to church... how am I going to get that grape juice stain out of the school carpet... why do my new shoes seem to make my feet stink... what can I fix for dinner tonight that everyone will like... shouldn't I have more than $100 in my checking account... will the books for the next bible study get here in time... what if our easter program bombs... why are there already weeds in my yard when the grass isn't even alive yet... is my sister doing ok as she parents our nephew... how long is the kid that's living with us going to actually live with us (that's another blog)... seriously, my feet haven't stunk since jr. high gym... how are we going to cram over 600 people into the elementary cafeteria in only two services... you get my drift.
I looked up centrifugal and here's what it said: 1. proceeding or acting in a direction away from a center or axis.
That's probably exactly what I'm doing. I'm off-center and I need to spend some time with my Jesus to get back to where I belong so that my brain will stop going 100 miles per hour. I need to re-focus... to stop thinking about problems the people in our lives and our congregation continually bring us to bear with them, finances, our church's next steps, my stinky feet, and everything else that's spinning around in there and just be with Jesus.
If you'll excuse me... I have a hot date. :)
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You go, girl!
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